Heavy feet... I don't know why some people have heavy feet. It's not a good thing you know. It's an irritating thing to have... heavy feet. When I was a child i used to have heavy feet. I was reprimanded by my father and since then i move around quietly... of course i had my feet dragging days back when i was in highschool... but i got over it. they made me use up lotsa shoes as my heels kept getting eaten by the ground. But growing up, i found how valuable having light feet are. i get to move around quietly and let other people sleep. i've been with people who have quiet feet... and then with people who have heavy feet... needless to say having heavy feet seem to reflect itself in all actions, in all habits and in all movements... (redundancy probably... but still). it's irritating and it wakes people up. some people aren't concious of having heavy feet... when they make a lot of rucous... but i bet, subconciously they have something they want to be noisy about. hi to del.

Confusions...

Confusion... to mix up... to jumble... to make mentally unclear... Confusion is caused by something unknown... uncertain. I've had that... everyone has. It feels like something's going crazy deep inside that you feel helpless. So many thoughts run through your mind, so many what ifs... so many possibilities - all not going according to plan or things such as... if only i did this... You feel your muscles tense, your head throbs, you start having problems breathing. Your stomach cramps and you suddenly feel fear...

Because you think nothing will turn out right.

i realized some things about confusion. one is that it's us that causes it not the circumstances around us. the circumstance are just added bonus, they're just there to add to the pressure... something that could give a high or be downright depressing.

another thing i realized about confusion... is that it's when we don't want to take responsibility for the decision we'd like to make. it's when our desire; what we want struggles with what should be and what is right. because we're trapped with wanting to have both, we get confused of which one to choose... and even though knowing that what is right should be the one we choose, we don't want to take responsibility for it.

funny, isn't it?