Total Weirdness Factor
Hey there... kinda weird really. I really think my family in my mother's side is dysfunctional.
1. I got married and it's kinda freaky that my mom hasn't gotten it out of her system that i can't fix her domestic problems. she keeps telling me she's taking care of her family, 3 little boys: dad and my 2 sibbies. It's frustrating really. she talks to me about the same things... and it is her family. ahhh... sigh, i guess they depended on me too much.
See! I shouldn't have married at a late age! I should have married a long time ago, so that i'd have a reason to just support me and my hubby. But i'm also happy that we waited this long... at least babu and i already know what we both want in our marriage and we're still growing...
2. Coming into the next thing about dysfunctional-ness... we had dinner with my family last sunday and invited some of my mother's family... all i can say is some of them were really rude and it's good that i haven't listed them as my guest for the church wedding next year... Okay going into the weirdness factor... my cousin who has a daughter and has been married for quite sometime congratulated me and said so how has it been so far? I answered coolness and everything's fine. She gave me a funny look and said, i'll wait 10 years and you can tell me what you think about marriage then.
Okay, not a really good thing to tell a newly wed person. I like that she was honest, but i can definitely see that she is or might be having problems with her hubby or marriage. erg, that's what happens when the fire has died... i pray that koala and i will have that friendship and happiness... and it's not left to chance. it's worked at and you definitely need GOD on your side.
And yes to all you cynics out there the reason why your life is so fucked up is because you keep saying there is no god!
And she tells me that we shouldn't have children yet and that we should spend our time with each other first. hmmm... i'm on a limited clock and who am i to tell God not to give us children?
3. My dad becomes emotional and wishes to have a private chat with me. I kinda not know what he wants to chat about. i guess i might have issues with him a long time ago... but i kinda not mind them anymore. i'll grow old and weary if i keep holding on to whatever happened in the past. erg.
4. My aunt who's been hot on my suspended pension plan comes up to me and tells me to start paying again so that we can change the name of my beneficiary. I know having a pension plan is cool, but that would mean i would have to budget really scrimply and i won't save anything for our new place. Money is important, but i think i'll put it in somewhere where i need it as of now. when i'm a little stable again, i'll re-open the damned thing.
Talk about weirdness... i don't know. it's just so... tiring having to consider everything... But honestly the one thing that bothers me is that the elders that i knew have just turned out... turned into something else... having so much elder concerns. it's sad... and it's not just a little... hmmm...
Hey there... kinda weird really. I really think my family in my mother's side is dysfunctional.
1. I got married and it's kinda freaky that my mom hasn't gotten it out of her system that i can't fix her domestic problems. she keeps telling me she's taking care of her family, 3 little boys: dad and my 2 sibbies. It's frustrating really. she talks to me about the same things... and it is her family. ahhh... sigh, i guess they depended on me too much.
See! I shouldn't have married at a late age! I should have married a long time ago, so that i'd have a reason to just support me and my hubby. But i'm also happy that we waited this long... at least babu and i already know what we both want in our marriage and we're still growing...
2. Coming into the next thing about dysfunctional-ness... we had dinner with my family last sunday and invited some of my mother's family... all i can say is some of them were really rude and it's good that i haven't listed them as my guest for the church wedding next year... Okay going into the weirdness factor... my cousin who has a daughter and has been married for quite sometime congratulated me and said so how has it been so far? I answered coolness and everything's fine. She gave me a funny look and said, i'll wait 10 years and you can tell me what you think about marriage then.
Okay, not a really good thing to tell a newly wed person. I like that she was honest, but i can definitely see that she is or might be having problems with her hubby or marriage. erg, that's what happens when the fire has died... i pray that koala and i will have that friendship and happiness... and it's not left to chance. it's worked at and you definitely need GOD on your side.
And yes to all you cynics out there the reason why your life is so fucked up is because you keep saying there is no god!
And she tells me that we shouldn't have children yet and that we should spend our time with each other first. hmmm... i'm on a limited clock and who am i to tell God not to give us children?
3. My dad becomes emotional and wishes to have a private chat with me. I kinda not know what he wants to chat about. i guess i might have issues with him a long time ago... but i kinda not mind them anymore. i'll grow old and weary if i keep holding on to whatever happened in the past. erg.
4. My aunt who's been hot on my suspended pension plan comes up to me and tells me to start paying again so that we can change the name of my beneficiary. I know having a pension plan is cool, but that would mean i would have to budget really scrimply and i won't save anything for our new place. Money is important, but i think i'll put it in somewhere where i need it as of now. when i'm a little stable again, i'll re-open the damned thing.
Talk about weirdness... i don't know. it's just so... tiring having to consider everything... But honestly the one thing that bothers me is that the elders that i knew have just turned out... turned into something else... having so much elder concerns. it's sad... and it's not just a little... hmmm...
posted by Eucalyptus @ 12:54 AM
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